Two Realities

First of all, what a beautiful day today is. I am looking out my window and I see the sun shining, students playing sand volleyball, and green grass. Spring is on the way, and I hope it keeps coming.

It's not the easiest thing coming back to school from spring break. It's not that hard either. The only way that I can explain it is in this way: two realities. When I am at school, I am doing the normal school thing. Homework, RA stuff, normal everyday living, etc. fill my day. When I am at home, I am in a completely different world. When I am at home, I get to live a home life, which is much, much different than a dorm life. When I am at home, my life just fits perfectly. I enjoy the things I do, I love the person that I am, the cherish the people I spend my time with. When I am at school, I experience all of this in a different way. I do enjoy the things I do. I love learning, I love being an RA, I love all of the college activities. I really lov e the person that I have become here. If it wasn't for this place I don't think that I would be the person that I am. This place has helped me become a better version of myself. I do cherish the people I spend time with here. The friends that I have made here are my best friends. They are actually good friends. They push you and help you grow. Yet, I still have these two distinct realities. In the past, especially my first years of college, the college reality fit oh so perfectly. Now, as I am seeing the future more clearly, this college reality is slowly dwindling day by day. Now, home life is what I am craving. I think people would be surprised how difficult it is to live in two different realities. It's as if our mind is split. You are here but you want to be there. You are there but you want to be here. You know, I never really understood when people used to say that time goes by so fast. Now I see what they mean. I know some of you reading this are thinking, "oh you just wait, it keeps getting faster." These two realities are tough. It's as if I am stuck in this phase that I have to go through to get to the next step. Understandable. We need those phases in our lives. Yet, I am so ready for the next phase, the next step. Do you know how hard it is to know the next step, to want to take the next step, but you can't because you have to finish this phase first. It's tough! Despite all of these thoughts I know that I am sitting right here right now in this phase of my life for a reason. It must be preparing me for something. Even though I wish to start the next phase, to take the next step, I must not waste the time I have. There are still things to learn, ways to grow, and people to help. Have you ever thought that God placed you in this spot at this time for a reason? If you are here, you must be here for a reason. God has a purpose. Majority of the time we don't have a clue what His purpose is, yet we are aware that there is a purpose. So my advice to you all and to myself is to not waste the phase that you are in. There are many things still left to be done. Many lives to touch, and many lives to be touched by. Enjoy it while it's here. The next step will be here soon enough.

Peace to all your hearts!