Spontaneity

My Sunday was the complete opposite of my Saturday. I did not have a "plain Jane" Sunday. Instead, I was actually spontaneous, which doesn't happen very often. And it turned out that my spontaneity proved to be extremely worthwhile. When I was at brunch after Mass someone mentioned that there was an NFP (Natural Family Planning) talk at the FOCUS missionary house later today, and she invited me and another friend to attend. Normally, I am not very spontaneous because I always have so much to do. However, I had spent the majority of Friday and Saturday working on homework and papers, and, even though I need to write a paper today, I felt that I had the time to dedicate my afternoon to this talk. Needless to say, my friend and I went and we were very glad that we were spontaneous.

The talk was given by a doctor in her residency at KU. She biologically explained fertility and the like and discussed birthcontrol and other contraceptives. It was extremely informative to understand fertility in such a biological way. For those of you who don't know, I am extremely interested in NFP. I find it so fascinating and according to God's plan. However, besides the informative benefits I received from this talk, I am excited about two other things that branched off of it. I will explain them now.

First off, I have always thought about becoming an NFP practitioner. If I were to do so, I would basically teach NFP to other people. I would teach them the theology behind it and I would teach them how to use it. I asked this woman if I have to be married in order to become a practitioner, since it seems to me that I would understand it better if I was practicing myself. She said that I don't have to be married to be a practitioner. This surprised me. If I were to become a practitioner this doesn't mean that it would be my full time job. It would be a nice little side job, and I would do it because I love it. So, I am thinking about looking into it to see if I could be trained next spring semester, since I will not have started graduate school yet. I am going to look into it and I am really excited about that.

The second thing I am even more excited about since it directly deals with my current life. I was just so amazed by this young Catholic woman. I mean, she's a doctor and she's getting married in October. Being young, Catholic, and desiring to be a doctor myself has given me a lot of anxiety and worry in the past year. I have never been able to figure out in my head how I am suppose to do it all, to become a doctor and yet want to get married and have children. I just don't know how all of that would work. I have been jumping back-and-forth, back-and-forth trying to figure out the most rational thing to do. Yet, I am still having difficulty. But seeing this young woman doing something she loves and being so passionate about it got me so excited for my own life. After the talk I went up to her and asked her about it. I told her my struggle and that I wanted to know how she overcame the same struggle. She said that if I am so passionate about it that I need to follow my passion. I can't think about all of the negative things that would happen if I decided to get my doctorate, but about all of the positive things that could happen. Most importantly, she said that I needed to keep praying about it. And she said that she would pray for me too. So here I am so excited about this. Excited to see how my prayers will be answered. Excited for this worry and anxiety to end. Excited to be so passionate about something. If God wants me to do it, I will do it. If He has another plan for me, then I will follow that plan. It was great to see a Catholic example living out this idea that brings me so much worry and confusion.

Obviously, my Sunday has been so wonderful. Being spontaneous has paid off big time. I ask that you all pray for me in hopefully coming to make a decision in my life. Pray that God may speak His will nice and clear to me and that I will be open to hear it and to follow it. And you all will be in my prayers. God bless!