Here I am once again. It has been quite a long time since I have written and it feels good to be back. I don't plan on writing every day as I did over Lent. I plan on writing whenever there is inspiration or when my thoughts are spilling out of my brain. Once again, I look forward to this journey.
So, you may be wondering what the heck has happened to me since I've last written and why the heck I am back. I will start with why I am back... this will be much easier. I am back because of some journaling time in adoration. Over the past couple of weeks of summer I have had some time to journal, and let me tell you, it has given me much clarity in my life. Yesterday, as I was in adoration journaling, it dawned on me (or should we call this a divine kick in the pants?) that I missed blogging. I missed sharing the moments that have touched my life. I missed sharing my insight. I missed letting you all into my life. Therefore, I have decided that it is time to get back into the swing of things. So, here I am. I really look forward to what I have to say to you all because I feel that I have gained a lot of wisdom and a lot of clarity over these weeks of summer. This is one of the things that I do best: reflect. I am so eager to share my reflections with you all!
Where have I been? What has happened to me? So much has happened that there is no way that I can share it all here. Gosh, I don't even know where I would start. This is what I will tell you, however. I read over a few of my posts throughout my lented journey and I am amazed for a number of reasons. I am amazed at some of the things that I wrote - they sound so beautiful, so poetic, so full of truth and life. I am amazed at the way that I looked at life. It is absolutely beautiful. I am amazed at where I am now on my journey versus where I thought I would be. This last statement is in reference to my last post. I apparently felt extremely called to something that I am currently not sure if I am actually called to. Surprise, surprise! I am talking about graduate school. I still don't have a clue where I will end up. As I entered the summer uncertain, I decided that I was going to take the summer off from thinking about it. So far this has really been working for me. I need to let my mind rest. I am well aware of the way that God communicates with me. For me, when I have to make a big decision about something God just lets me know. I just know. Clearly, I don't know yet about graduate school, so I will give God the time He needs to tell me. It will be revealed to me, I am sure of this. Therefore, I don't need to think about it now and I won't. So, this is the last you will be hearing about this for awhile.
Here's my reflective side now. I want to explain to you as to why I find it important to share my heart with you all. It goes something like this. If you have this inspiration in your life, if you have this truth residing within your heart, it is a crime not to share it. God did not give us such wisdom to keep all for ourselves. If there is a possibility that my knowledge, wisdom, and thoughts can contribute to the edification of you all, then I will gladly share. However, it is in the sharing in which I am most edified. I find it so important to share the things that bring me to life. It hurts me to keep it all locked up inside. I feel such joy knowing that you all are able to share and participate in my life through a blog. Whoever would have thought? I feel so unified with you all and I don't really even know who all is reading this. I feel so connected, and this is what we call the Body of Christ. Because I feel this way, because I know that I am participating in the Body of Christ, I am able to understand how important it is to share my life with others. "Those who keep their lives with lose them, but those who lose their lives, for my sake, will save them." I am taking a little bit of a different interpretation on this bible verse but I think it still works. I am basically saying to let go of your life and to share it. At least that is what I am trying to do. As I said before, I am so excited to continue to share my life with you all. Our lives mean nothing if we don't share them. It doesn't do us or anybody any good if we keep it all to ourselves.
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